the start of something beautiful

TJ and I recently announced that we are indeed pregnant. I am almost 20 weeks along and we just barely announced it. Some people think its odd. But in my opinion it really is no ones business but ours and we wanted to make sure everything was perfectly fine with our baby before we went and posted it on social media. Many people post their pregnancy tests which is just fine but not the way I roll. I'm not big on putting personal things on social media anyways especially not sticks I've peed on. With of course the obvious reason, this wasn't planned. It was a very big shock...yes i do know how it happened but we weren't trying. This was supposed to happen in 5 years...its in my five year plan which now has to go down the drain. We are young and not married so many people we know will disapprove of us. We didn't want to instantly blurt out that we were having a baby because number one, we were still in shock (and still are), number two, we wanted all of our family members to know first, and third, I remember every horror story anyone has ever told me, I didn't want to announce that we were having a baby and then God forbid something go terribly wrong. We told our family and some friends and also some people we probably shouldn't have told if we wanted to keep it quiet. Word got out and tends to fly fast around good ol Pocatello. So the rumors started and eventually what people were saying got back to us. Thats another part of why we waited to announce little man. It amazes me how awful people can be. So lets just get those stupid rumors out of the way so you losers who believe them can find another rumor to start. No..I did not get pregnant on purpose. You should be slapped if you have said that. No... we are not getting married just because we are having a baby. We had been talking about getting married before this happened. We knew we were meant to be and then this just sealed the deal. We wanted a May wedding so I thought why not? At the time thinking it would be cute to have a baby bump at my wedding but now with the wedding date coming closer and the baby bump growing bigger I get a little bit of anxiety..or its the pregnancy hormones. Either way we are so excited about our wedding and couldn't be happier that our little one will be there with us. Yes...the baby is TJ's. You should also be slapped. Yes...we are young. But the way I see it thats more time I get to spend with the love of my life and enjoying my children. I obviously wanted to start reproducing little tj and taylors in 5 years but like TJ told me right when that little plus sign popped up on the stick, we wouldn't be having a baby right now if it wasn't meant to be. My five year plan was not accurate I guess because I do believe every thing happens for a reason. Not going to lie when I did see that plus sign I was very upset and scared. I didn't understand because I thought it was way to soon but after time and an amazing baby daddy who calmed me down I relaxed and have now accepted the fact that at 20 years old I will become a mommy to probably a fat, cute, rotten little boy (if he's anything like his father) and people will disagree and say what they want about me, tj and my baby. At first the rumors and peoples reaction to me being pregnant was hard but now I know who truly loves me for me and is supportive to TJ and I. Words cannot describe the feeling of knowing you are going to be a mom and feeling it in your tummy every day. I feel so blessed to have a healthy enough body to create tiny humans and to have the most amazing man to share it with. I would not change a single thing. I would wash our underwear together all over again if I had to ;) Through this entire journey I have found an entire new appreciation for Teej. He has not said one negative thing about us being pregnant, he talks to my belly constantly (even when I'm trying to sleep and drives me insane..i still secretly love it), he makes runs to the gas station for my late night cheeto and chocolate milk cravings, he has put up with all the crazy hormonal tears, and I know he will be the best father. He already looks forward to it. I am a very lucky girl. And now I get two of him. We can't thank everyone enough for their love and support. Its been a crazy, amazing, wonderful journey for the two of us. We actually can wait for the dirty diapers and screaming baby at wee hours in the morning but we are very excited to welcome Thomas the 4th in August. XOXO T