happy holidays!

This year was me and TJ's second christmas together and our first in our new home.

It was very bittersweet this being my first Christmas not at home with my parents. The moment when it finally sank in was when I realized I was Santa! Not my mom! I had to go set presents out and everything and Santa left nothing poor little me!;) It was fun though.

We didn't get a tree because in the mess of moving and starting my job at a new place and just barely being back into Pocatello a tree was the least of my worries. TJ always had a fake tree growing up. My family did both but he was so set on us getting the biggest real tree he could find. I think I broke his tender heart a bit when I said I don't want a tree this year. Too much work! and I knew he wouldn't be helping me any! So we didn't end up getting one. Presents went under the TV stand.

We had such a great Christmas this year though. We were very spoiled by everyone, it was such an awesome day. We are so very blessed to have such great people that care so much about us.

Christmas Church

I made this wood ornament last year for our first christmas last year

 I made him pose for a pic with it this year:)

Santa came to our house for ChevyDog, TG, and Paul

 Jamesy was pretty tired Christmas morning...at 7AM

 TJ is getting me a muffler for my car, and i get to go pick it out

but he made a pretend one for me to open up:)

(nice pose teej)

I think they had a successful Christmas

housewife material

Alright...I have been an official house"girlfriend" for a little over a week and it is not what I expected.
I am not sure what I expected, but it wasn't anything near this. But I LOVE it. I love coming home from work to my teej or waiting for him to walk in that front door. I am definitely all on my own now and then have a man to take care of on top of myself. While living in Twin Falls my wonderful mother would still do most things for me. Which god bless her heart she is still helping me learn right now.
Moving in with TJ made me realize all of the different things we had different growing up, from a real and fake christmas tree, to where we put the tupperware. Everything different we came acrossed we compromised. Picked one or the other, and it was never a big deal. Which surprised me for how hard headed both of us are. But the one and only thing we cannot and probably never will agree on is peanut butter. Of all things. I hate creamy and have to have crunchy and he is opposite, he hates crunchy and loves creamy. So we both have our own jar of peanut butter in our house. And I am so blessed to find a man that the other thing we can't agree on is peanut butter. :)
I am sure I will have more to come as a learn to be this wonderful housewife! Its a very different and exciting experience. I found such a great house and I get to share it with my very best friend.
to be continued... :)

night before we moved in

the kitchen all finished!

MORE PICTURES TO COME:)

 



my last day in twin

tomorrow is my last day living in twin falls. i have very mixed feelings.
for one i am so excited for my new house and to be with my teej, for two i am so stressed and for three i am very sad. i will miss my room mates and especially the people i work with.
i love my job and i know i love it so much because of the people and my client. i will be working at the same place in pocatello but not with the same people. i never knew my client would impact my life so greatly. he is such a wonderful kid and i think he taught me alot more then i ever taught him. he comes from a great family as well which makes this twenty times harder. they accepted me into their home and let me spend most of my day with this great boy. i couldn't be more blessed to have met him and his family. even though it breaks my heart to leave him i know he is in such good hands. i will miss his smiling face and singing every day.
bittersweet i guess. when one door closes another one opens. this was such a good chapter in my life. i definitely learned a lot about myself and life. made me grow up a ton. i am ready for the next chapter, i think it will be a very good one.

to be continued...as a housegirlfriend?

my tiny room in twin falls

my new home

first tantrum

I just started working as a Developmental Therapist at Seasons of Hope here in Twin. I have one client so far. And i adore him. He is 8 and has autism. Somedays I feel like he hates me others I'm his best friend. I never know what to expect. My mother tells me not to take anything personally when he is mad. Thats a challenge with my tender heart.
Before I enlighten you all on my first tantrum I want to tell you what we do day to day. I have him every day except Wednesdays and weekends. I pick him up from school and take him home at 7. I can usually tell how his mood is right when i pick him up. There are days he can't get his backpack on fast enough or there are days where i walk in the classroom and I hear "NNNNOOOOOOOOOOO!" Almost always he is mad and to help him cool down I take him to tennis courts and he walks around and stares at the fence. And it is like therapy for him. As i freeze to death! Or we will go to the park. He loves Toy Town. We play a game and practice taking turns and then we get a free sample of fudge. Sometimes we go to Wal Mart and I make him walk around with me for a good hour. He goes nuts all he wants is the toys, if he is good we stay in the toys for 10 minutes before we leave. Thats the jist of it.
So the other day I decided to try Target, scoping out Christmas presents, I didnt let him go to the toys because he had been a pill all day and kept asking me. So after an hour I say its time to go. Part of my job with him is to help with the OCD he has that effects other people. He likes to stomp, but that never really effects anyone. He has weird OCD with doors. In my car if he gets in on the passenger side he wants to get out on the drivers side. Or he has to touch the inside of the door, where the hidges are. I have never let him get away with it and he has always done really well with it. So in Target I was headed out the automatic doors and he wanted to go out the other set and I informed him we were going out the other doors. People looked at me like I was such an asshole. (let me fill you in some more...he calls me mommy and looks like any other normal 8 year old. so no one sees he has a problem until he starts talking most of the time i get pretty cute looks from people) Any other kid sure go out that door cause you can open it like any one else and you wont stare at it for ten minutes. anyways after talking to him for a couple minutes he finally came out the right door with me. Then we came to the second set of doors, it was the same problem all over again. After talking to him again he came out the right doors with me. After we were outside he watched everyone walk out the door. Eventually he started crying and screaming at everyone walking out of the doors. I encouraged him it was okay and it was time to go. All of a sudden he threw himself up against the door and then the floor. He screamed so loud it hurt my ears. When I was trained I was told he has pretty violent tantrums and all you can do is let him throw it and then calm down on his own..trying to help him makes it worse. I think the whole town of Twin Falls was at Target that day. It was awful. He kept yelling "ow" because he kept hurting himself and I couldnt do anything. People looked at me like I was the worst mom for first of all, letting my child hurt himself, and also for letting an 8 year old throw a fit like that, and just standing there. People dont understand and i really don't blame them but can i just say...I look damn good for having an 8 year old! Come on people. I know I look older than my age but seriously!
Eventually he calmed down enough to walk to the car. I played him music and he just started singing like nothing was wrong. I called my mom sobbing. It was one of the hardest things. His sceaming, hurting himself, and the looks. But most of all being helpless.
That night after I left his house we did our traditional high five and fist bump. It weighed on my tender heart pretty bad, but I know I can't take it personally.
I love my job. And I thank god for leading me to it. Even with the bad day I still love it and still look forward to seeing my client.

a new blogger!

Ooohhh someone please help a sister out! This bloggin is not my thing. Maybe its the blonde sinking in. So if you have any advice at all...let me know!
I decided to start this blog for a couple reasons. First off I am growing up and I would love to share my stories of being on my own and get imput from others. I also want to have all of this for memories when I'm old and wise (if i ever grow up) I can look back.
I live in Twin Falls, Idaho currently and am going to school at CSI, but I have made the decision to move back home to Pocatello to be with my family and honey. So I am going to move in with my boyfriend TJ. Weird. Scary. Exciting. I am going to blog about my new "housewife" adventures starting in December.
Hop on for the ride! Hold on tight while I try to figure this all out please:)